Samar

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Terkadang dalam hidup saat kita sedang terluka, kita berusaha menyalahkan orang lain agar luka yang kita rasakan sedikit berkurang.
Kamu yang terluka olehnya, berusaha menyakiti aku. 
Lantas apa yang bisa aku lakukan saat aku disakiti oleh orang yang tersakiti? 
Lantas siapa yang paling merasakan sakit?
Hina rasanya bila diriku marah kepada orang yang aku tau — terluka. 
Lantas apa yang bisa aku lakukan selain menerima? 
Berusaha untuk mencari sasaran lain untuk ku salahkan agar luka ku terasa berkurang?

Begitu kah?
Ku harap tidak.

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Ditulis tanggal 26 April 2018

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