Chaos & Calm

2017 akan segera berakhir, sempat tersimpan beberapa kata yang enggan tuk terucap, sempat tersimpan beberapa rasa yang membeku dalam bisu, sempat tersimpan beberapa bait yang terukir di atas kertas putih, sempat ada bahagia, sempat ada sengsara, 2017 sempat ada cerita. image source: pinterest Satu tahun tidak sedikit, bersama ribuan pikiran dari ratusan kepala membuat aku paham apa itu kebahagiaan, memang sulit dicari, lantas ingin menyerah? sempat tersirat, tapi yang aku butuhkan hanya istirahat. Tak perlu berhenti namun meyakini bahwa  sebenarnya   diri sendiri adalah yang dicari, kebahagiaanku, ada pada diriku. Satu tahun tidak sedikit, lamanya waktu membuat isi kepala semakin lama digerogoti akan hal yang tak pasti, bingung kemana mencari arti sebab yang dinanti belum datang tapi rasanya sudah menghilang, ragu akan tujuan yang kian lama pudar yang tak teguh membuat diri sendiri runtuh, banyak hal yang membuat ingin menyerah ta...

Sempat ada beberapa kata yang tak terucap namun terukir di atas kertas, Surat kali ini tentang September. image source: pinterest Untuk apa cemas jika semua resah tak singgah di benakmu Untuk apa ada jika adaku hanya untuk siamu Untuk apa tinggal jika ragaku hanya sebatas bayang di matamu Dan untuk apa bersama jika diriku hanyalah perkara mudah untukmu Apa arti mensyukuri ketika keelokkan tetangga adalah yang kau cari Apa arti peduli ketika ucapmu hanya sekadar basa-basi Apa arti setia ketika cenderungmu adalah mendua Dan apa arti cinta ketika setiap ucap melebur menjadi dusta Tidak perlu, Tidak perlu berusaha untuk berpura-pura tak tahu Tidak perlu berusaha untuk berpura-pura menerima Karena ku tahu kau hanya semoga yang tak kunjung menjadi nyata Saat tiba waktu dimana kita usai, semoga tak ada yang saling menyalahkan Sebab berjuang bukanlah alasan kita terpisahkan Karena kita lah yang menghadirkan kebohongan Untuk setiap rasa yang pasti...

It is something. To have the ability to feel happiness in someone’s laughter, To have the ability to feel pain in someone’s suffering, Because life has its proportion. That is what people called, the balances. We have all been there, The world againsts us, The circumstances blame us, The closests disappear one by one, The dreams fade slowly, We get hurt easily with all the little things like school, movies, books, strangers, and the one that we love the most. We start to hate every single thing that distracts us, Like the bitterness that we made in our own coffee, The weather that feels so cold which can freeze our body and the next second feels so hot which can burn our soul, The chaotic of all the things around us, Even, Seeing ourself in the mirror is one of the thing that we hate. We pour, pour, and pour everything that we feel until we realize how empty we are. And we punish ourself for every loss. We think the only way that could e...

What comes up on your mind when you hear “Love”? It’s gonna be so cheesy, but what’s coming up from my mind is him. He- I don’t really know who is he, but I do believe that there are some things in this universe that just fit. I don’t know if we are meant to be or not. But for now, I trust him. image source: pinterest They said he is such a good man, but I didn’t care a whit because I didn't even know him at that time. Me- was in a step of healing. Healing from everything that's broken. Then suddenly, everything is turning so different. He- brings the colours into my life. He- becomes the most beautiful thing that I’ve ever seen. He- is different. And I adore different things. Me- almost forgot how it felt to be loved and to be in love and suddenly he came and changed everything. He jokes, He laughs, He smiles, He shouts, He calms, He complains, Everything that he does makes me want to pull him closer. It is like everything that he ...

Hello guys! Actually, I made this blog just for some random posts. I was thinking that it could be the one of the best places where I can express what I feel. So, me- just a woman who believes that everything comes up from your mind and you have to set it positively. This year, my age will turn into nineteenth. Dude, I hate to grow older :( I do love God, my family, my friends, my neighbors, my teachers, and any mys. I am so thankful for everyhting that I have, I am so thankful for living in this world and having so many graces that can not be counted. And, I really want to be a woman who can handles everything on her own, I want to make my anger so expensive that no one can afford it, and I want to make my happiness so cheap that people can almost get it for free. So guys, that is it what I want to share with you. Aaand for reminder, do not forget to be the reason someone smiles today! Have a great day, all! image source: pinterest