December Breeze

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at some point in our lives, we may feel like we’re really tired

like the world has drained us for everything we had

a phase where we feel like we’re lost and empty

nothing feels like it makes sense anymore

it feels like the world was ending, but the sun kept rising day after day

we feel like holding on was wrong, but letting go was also never right


at some point in our lives, we may also fall in love with someone we cannot have

more about a person who has touched our lives deeply and intimately 

but fate just won’t let us be with them in this lifetime

at first, we were willing to gamble everything we had in order just to feel utterly happy around them

however, once we realize it’s a losing game, we start to understand that the only thing we should do is to let go

but the core is not that simple

we’re going to face many hurtful sleepless nights

moments where gasping for air is poetically painful

a realization of the misery we have to endure for a long time

because in the end,

we knew that the grieves never really leaves

it lingers with us as well as the happy memories


but at some point in our lives, there will always be a specific moment that becomes our strength to face this cruel world

like remembering the first time we felt warmth in someone’s laughter

the first sip of our own coffee which we knew it’d be our favorite

the first rain where we shared our umbrella with someone

the safety feeling we receive whenever someone holds us tight

the tenderness feeling when someone caresses our hair

the sound of their heartbeat when we rest our head on their chest

or even the first gentle brush of lips we shared on a random sunny day in a car


those priceless little moments sometimes become the reason we don’t easily give up in this chaotic life

they are like proofs that we were happy yet we also will at the end of our chapter

every tear and bitterness will be a lesson for us eventually

because we’re going to learn,

learn,

and learn,

on every heartbreak, we learn

we may not wholly accept the reality we’re currently facing

yet we’re starting to adapt on everything that is

 - December, 2023

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