Thoughts in September
sometimes i wonder, how come the places i love, the things i adore, somehow scare me to an unfamiliar degree? i used to love how the morning rain falls, i used to be comfortable by the gentle breeze at night, i used to adore how the moonlight shines so bright, how the stars accompany her along the way, i used to enjoy listening to some songs on the bus whilst contemplating life, even i used to love to drink my coffee alone, read books at new places, or even chat with some random old people. somehow, all of the things i love, always remind me of your existence. and that is what scares me the most, to remember you, it hurts. and i'm scared, what if the things i love become the things i avoid? and, what if i long for you for the rest of my life? 10.51 a.m. 28th of September, on Transjakarta heading to Lebak Bulus.
