Chaos & Calm

"too many goodbyes that sometimes i wish we have forever. also, my love, if there is really another universe, i can make sure that i love you the most in this one." - 18.01

he is the person who i've been proud of to some of the closests to me, i find joy in his company, he brings a smile to my face easily. he has encouraged me to pursue my passions and have inspired me in many aspects of my life. he is a total fine, a thousand times enough. however, as much as everything feels right, i feel like i have to let him go. i can't quite pinpoint why, but i think it's because i'm not in the right place. it pains me to say this, but i think it would be selfish of me to hold on to him when i know that i can't give him my all. so, please, dear God, let me let him go. still, i thank him for coming leaving no questions, but answers. i'll keep the answers for me. and i might actually be the bad person who broke his heart and i think it's time for me to go. if someday we still have someday, i hope there's nothing wrong between us anymore  — hope our life is a little kind enough to us. someday, in the future, if  we have more times, if ma...